i dont know what am i feeling now . the only thing i know is Os is my priority now .. All i can say is i must admit i m disappointed at times bout something .
i am disappointed bout my results .
disappointed that you dont care .
disappointed that some ppl cannot understand my good intention
disappointed that that despite all the talking and hoping for the best for her , C still went back to W .
disappointed that my friends till now still dont understand me .

But what can i do ? I've got too much work on hand . And i have got no time for all this . I am going to think for myself . For at least this time . I just dont wanna make a big fuss bout anything , but still i care . i know .

i'm so freaking sick D: ! i am not weak , yet i feel uncomfortable .. very very uncomfortable D: ! guess need to makan porrigde for the next few days D: ! Anyways , yesterday's oral , not too bad . actually i got nothing to say , but i just keep talking and talking .. Until one part that teacher intercept and sum up wad i want to say , den i say "ya" . i guess she wanna shut me up . But den after that i continue again . hahahahhaha ! :D ~ Guess my weapon is my mouth ehhks ? wakakas . Yesterday 2pm i in the hall alr . now is alr 2pm , so it's 24 hour since i saw you D: ! imysm . We havent been on the phone until you go to bed recently . Sometimes the very next day i just wanna ask you , so how was yesterday night ? slept well ? What were you doing ? So many things i wanna say to you , i wanna ask you .
As for the previous post , im sorry , i didnt bother to remove it , cos u alr read it . no difference . i just thought you wouldnt even care or bother bout what i say , how i think .. Be it you do or you do not , im just sorry .. like i promised , i wont say those things again alrights . You happy ..... can alr .. ilysm ..

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hi all . Thing weren't going well for me recently . But i am fine now :D ! i took e whole night to think about it .. And i m not gonna let myself get affected by people who dont care or dont love me .. i have got more than one person in my life . my friends and family . they love me . i know it . So , that one person shall not crash me dead . And , i did try my best , to show love . to be a good fren . since it's not appreciated then fine :D ! Good luck to that person for her future den .. study hard ^^ . and last long w your love ^^ .
Am not going to school later ^^ gonna rest today den report back on tues ^^ ..
I thank all my friends for all the texts and calls . Thanks so much to you guys for the care and concern . i am okay . and as for that person , okay also . definitely better than i am . that person's love will take care of that person . So dont ask me anything alr ^^ . i not sure . dun wanna know also . :D ! you guys say i cant avoid in school , ya i know . But i'll cut down on talking or whatever . ^^ . just so u guys know . i am very okayy .. really :D ! if there's anything , i will tell u all . i promise . love u all lots . <3

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hey . school going reopen soon alr :D ! so happy ! ha . anyways , some thoughts to share . Sorry if i am a nuisance . I did'nt mean it .

- i just wanna be myself .
was chatting with a school mate that day . though we dont communicate in school , but they are sharing with me their problems . It actually shows that they trust me . look through my FB list and realised , one out of a few definitely have talked to me about their problems before . And seeing them happy now , is e best thing ever .. I dont care if i'm used or what so ever . As long as they will feel better it is ok . The least is they appreciate it . And when i help them i feel happy . I just dont understand , why whenever i am putting extra effort to help them , some people around me just need to put me down . By saying that i am a busybody and i have nothing better to do in life that's why i get involve in their issue . I feel very discourage when this happens . Cause i feel that maybe the one i am helping also think this way .. If you all are my friends , why can't you all understand ? If i know they are upset and i don't help them , i don't feel good in my heart . I can't help them solve everything , but the least is i try my best and i really wanna listen to them , hoping they will feel better . If you all dont encourage me and think that i am busybody , the least is dont give comment . Can ? I just hope u all can understand , i just wanna be myself . To be able to help whoever i can reach out to when there are down , because i walk through it .. And i know how difficult it is ! It's not sad .. Not just sad . But when some one is in a depressed state . I know how it feels . And i dont wanna them to be alone .. I've learnt alot , and my life is not like one pathetic dog like one year ago .. Cause i'm able to see things in a positive way now . And it's really great . That's why i wanna help them , i dont wanna them waste their time getting upset over issues that we cant do anything about it .. It is some one's day u are going to change , it is some one's life you are going to affect . I just hope u all will let me ........ Be who i wanna be .. Don't say all those discouraging things anymore .. Appreciate it .. You all are still my friends ..

HEY ! :D ~ got miss me anots ? huhh huhh huhh ??? :D :D !
came back from work early today , told them i sick . ya SICK ! SICK AND TIRED OF WORKING THERE ! ARGH ! the thoughts of going to work seriously kill me ! D: ! i want go back school . i want see everyone , give them sweet , play and laugh around . running all over doing my "visiting" during recess time . i miss finding rajes , yamuna , salimah and soniaah in the toilet randomly anytime .. I miss disturbing my babes in school .. I miss recess time running to aishah , rina , ruhayu they all give them sweet .. I miss all those time D: ! sad .. please .. school faster reopen !! though i dont like lesson :D ! hahhahaha ~ ok lame .


Yesterday , i went to wild wild wet with 5 darlings .. [ sabrina , naandhini , sheena , afifah& sindhu ]
Had fun ! Embarrass to the max when me and brina tried selling the receipt ! lOL ! and when i walking backwards i got "sucked" into the water .. and they start laughing at me .. See la ! act smart -.- walk backwards . lOL ! And funniest part . i thought i lost my specs and everyone started looking for it . in the end we gave up . i dont want the specs alr .. DEN I FOUIND IT ! IT IS HANGING ON NAANDHINI'S HAIR !! FUNNY LA ! she didnt know , WE didnt know ! had sooooooo muchh fun !! :D ~ LOVE them so much !! :D !

School gonna reopen in 9 days time ! yippppeeee ! i'm so gonna hug all of them ! Cos i miss them so dam much ! AND WELCOME SINDHU TO NORTH VIEW SEC ! WEEEE ~~ ok shall end here . love all ! *kiss kiss* hahahahahha ! :D !