when will my true friend appear ? perhaps god is now trying to find an 'intercept' in my life and his/her life .. so that we can meet each other ..
i used to have a friend that i 'thought' was my true friend . but i realise , eveything was only what i 'thought' . i believe god will not let me walk my journey alone . he will definitely send him/her to me very soon .. some one that can give me the most basic fairness that i need and he/she wouldnt hurt me for another person ..
Although , in my heart , there is some one that i personally trust alot .. however , she is not my friend and i m not her friend , we only exist in each other's school life . some one even told me before , she is just a passerby , and she too said before she is just a passing cloud in our life .. but to me , i see her as senior , as mother . some one that i love and respect alot . i thank her for everything .. and i know i couldnt thank her enough .. if words can express how thankful i am , i will say a million thanks to her .. i'll keep this teacher of mine in my mind for as long as i can .. only one word .. [ gratitude ]
thank you , mama chong .
在中学的日子里能拥有你这个好老师我真的很幸运。
你是上天赐给我们的好老师，我会记得你 ((:
you rawks ((:

studying the whole day . that's all .

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just now while i studying alone at mac , i realise got alot ppl i want thank .. and got alot ppl i didnt realise their importance in my life .. until now .. i've got so much to tell them .. really .. maybe it is becos of what happen-ed all these while that showed me alot .. ppl around that i should really treasure .. and people around that really care for me .. those that are true and those who are only here to hurt me ..
for ppl in my life that helped me and care for me . thank you . really .. (L)

If i had to live my life , without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you i see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong
Our dreams are young and we both know
They'll take us where we want to go
Hold me now,touch me now
I don't wanna live without you ....
Nothing's gonna change my life for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more then you love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much i love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you ...
If the road ahead is not so easy
Our love will lead a way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too
Hold me now , touch me now
I don't wanna live without you ...
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by now how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more then you love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much i love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you ...
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much i love you
One thing you can you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more then your love ..
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much i love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more then your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much i love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you ...
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought to know by know how much i love you
One thing you can you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more then your love ..

very sick today .. yawns ..
affect ? did you even give a dam bout wad i said all along ? u bloody only care for him .. dun come and cock with me can ? seriously .. he is all along the only one you need what ? seriously .. u and ur craps .. l0ls .. wadeva by-atch .. ((: `


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weren't feeling well today .. go rest liao . chiaoz ..
iLOVE4a3 . and TEACHERS ~

what am i suppose to say ?
can anyone tell me , why is boyfriend always more important than friend ? why once people have boyfriend they forget they still have friend ? no matter how close we once were and everything , just a few month is enough to replace everything ..
i only believe what i see .. i am not going to trust you again .. since he is all you need , may god bless you then .. all the best ..
i am happy with my life now .. ((:
i know alot people here for me . they help me . they say it and they do it . they didnt hurt me for another some one . i love them .

so fast .. 1 day juts gone lyk tis ..
today woke up early in e morning .. suppose to go meet tony , ven jie and eddie they all .. but alot thing do and exam coming .. so i nv meet them .. den go library study study alone .. until 5+ ms chong come .. den help me study study till 7+ i tink ? den jiu bring me go de-stress awhile .. den jiu come home .. anyway , chatt-ed .. and i realise alot thing .. thanks cher .. really .. and 4a3 .. love you [[Bs]] loads .. let's all work hard together ok ? ((:

i am happy with my life now .. satisfied .. contented .. and everything i use can to describe .. [[ positive ]]
pls .. as long as it don't get worst .. i dunwan it to get better either , i dunwan be greedy .. if it's meant to be mine , it will be mine .. now that i m happy with my life , she is oso happy with her life .. den ok oredi .. perhaps we are not meant to be friend .. 4 years of friendship .. are we putting a comma ? or a fullstop ? i not sure .. but wad i know is , now she dont need me , and i dont need her as muchh as before too .. myabe one day after he leave she will need me again ? nevermind .. i m jus being naive .. leave it ((: ..


once upon a time , we were best friend . rmb ?
i guess you dont .. because , u have him now ..
thank you for wasting your 4 years here ,
now that you found some one you really need ,
i wish you all the best .. takkaire .

up[s] and down[s] in life , everyone got to accept it coming sooner or later right ?
am i still standing here at the spot not moving ? or have you started to run , so that i wont catch up you ? hope that you are now happy , perhaps all along i was a burden .. i read her blog and when i saw that she said '' i love you,*insert name* , ya know right .. etc etc .. '' i guess u've really found yourself a best friend .. being able to understand you and share your burden , not like me only adding on to it .. i didnt know what was the date but , i saw your name she posted and i didn't even bother to check the date cos it oredi shows how close u guys are .. now .. ya you bothh have muchh in common .. shopping spree with her , she find you when she have problem in relationship and anything .. asking for your comfort and this and that .. unlike me , don't share anything with you right ?
do you think i really don't think back about the days we used to spent together .. laughing and crying like the world is never to an end ? huhh ? perhaps u are too busy now .. busy with studies and _ _ ..
friends come and go , i should learn to treat all friends equally , and never allow anyone to get up the the seat you once sat in my heart anymore , just leave it empty and let my best friend be my own soul .. what am i to say ? who am i to even voice out now ? [[ agonize ]]

hihi ` back ((: long no post le , school reopen le busy ` paiisehh .. kayys anyways , SCHOOL AIR IS SO DIFFERENT ! it's EXTRA FRESHHHH ! i just love school ` can see my classmates and teachers again is my greatest joy ..
really really gonna studyy hard , had been hanging out w myy quite often recently .. ((:
life isn't getting any better , but i'm too tired to cry or think .. let it be .. if fwens are meant to be they will always be here .. if they are not , i must learn to wave good bye to them [[ no matter how muchh i love them ]] landing back to the previous state is the LAST thing i wanna ..

- if you think you are my friend , don't hurt me for another some one .. -

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