iLOVEyou~

Sunday, November 29, 2009

我真的好挂念你...告诉我，在你眼里我比他们特别好吗？
the first you held on to my hand , you made my heart skipped a beat ..
is this special feeling when you're around ..
you make me wanna keep in heart everything you say ..
you make me wanna remember all your likes and dislikes ..
you make me feel like looking at you throughout the 8 hours standing there ..
your appearance distracts me even when a second ago i was attentively serving a customer ..
你的微笑，对我来说很重要...
想你想得快疯了...
因为爱上了你我逐渐的迷失了方向...
爱上不该爱的你...

Labels: iLy ..

Friday, November 27, 2009

YOYO ! ((: ~
okayy .. just to say , work life .. getting better .. had a talk with some people ..
thrash things out .. hopefully it'll really be good ~ *amen* ..
people that know me well enough should know at times i pull myself back .. to refrain from getting hurt .. cos i get emotional very easily ..
but now , i want release everything .. i want enjoy myself @ work place .. i know i will get too attach to the place , just like school when i cant bear to leave school .. even the thoughts of graduating makes me cry .. i know the day when i leave work place will also be like this .. but i really want to enjoy this 2 month .. working together with them .. no point bringing the hates and dislikes leaving that place ..
esp to my seniors and supervisor [ mdm "T" and mdm "Y" ]
all this while they though me alot of things .. i thank them for that .. and it's from the bottom of my heart .. may god bless you all .. dont be upset or angry about things that happen at work .. it dun feel good to see u all upset or angry , is like seeing ur own love ones emotionally hurt .. esp mdm "Y" cheer up ..
thinking back , previously .. my thinking is always negative .. and i often act up ... beating up/throwing/punching things that i see .. i mean especially my school wall and doors -.- , i rmb the previous time i spoil the toilet thingy after one punch .. saras was there and i rmb after i cool down how she was talking and laughing about it .. and how ms kaur told me trying to calm me down telling me if i continuing punching that pathetic door my hand will break [ she more afraid that i break my hand cannot take "N" den cannot get a distinction for her humanities ] haha .. joking joking .. but anyway , now think back really silly .. luckily i have friends and classmates like them .. [ saras , fifah , sabrina , raudah , myy , qq , dd , wl , hs , rf ....... ] never ending la . cos i m so lucky .. they never leave me alone despite so many times acting upo all of the sudden spoiling the fun at times .. they always try to help me ..

saras : i remember how i suddenly wanna act up and you will always allow me to squeeze ur hands and holding it to calm myself down .. i remember how i drag you out of one place to the other when i act up .. i remember how i pull you around the corridoor when we "fight" .. i remember how i drag you around the classroom even when mdm lau was there .. SO MUCH FUN ! [ ehh i realise i drag you everywhere ehhks ? ] anyway , babe i love you ! thanks so muchh .. bless us go up next year kayy ..

afifah : babe , thanks .. the time when i was really down .. and no one .. i meant no ONE that i trust i could turn to .. all the sucidal thoughts gushing up .. u spend time msging me .. and even allowed me to talk to ur mommy .. thanks alot .. i mean , if not for that day , i might really not be here anymore .. thank you dear .. love you ..

raudah : this silly girl , always so blur .. once dislike-d me and thought i wanna steal ... away .. we are fwens babe .. no such thing as stealing who and all such .. alright ? thank you so much .. if werent for ur understanding , the teachers day stuff wouldnt be so successful .. love you ..

myy : my lessy .. listen-ed to my probs .. we both fish and chips fan ! hahaks .. anyways , just thanks for everything .. hope to see you soon ! u said to visit me ! hahaks .. love you ..

sabrina : she is crazy bout her boyy .. seriously ! and she go around laughing and acting like a retard .. she is dam vulgar .. dun mess with her .. but so wad ? iLOVE her ((: ~ she is a crazy byytchh ! see u nxt yr kayy ? ((: ~

okayy la off to makan le .. byebye ((: ~

to my BABY tan ..
i understand that you have lots of things in mind .. pls dont keep it to urself .. though after i start working , we never really text le .. but must rmb cheer up .. anything , can find me .. though mght not be of muchh help .. but the least i can do is to listen .. alrights ? cheer up dear .. see u soon okayys ? *miss* ` rmb the balloon i get for you ? the one with the love thingy ? hahaks .. i think by now die already bahhs ? but my love for you will never die ! iloveyou BABY TAN !

Saturday, November 21, 2009

hellO !? back ((: ~ todayy off .. got miss me ? ((: ~ okayy .. let's start
heyy , to ex xishanites .. guess who i saw @ my work place ? (: ~
i saw mr . hong .. if u all still remeber who he is .. &&
our EX V.P , mrs sing .. is so funny la .. i scared i recongise wrongly den i dun dare ask ..
den when i serve her , i said " mam , it feels good to be able to assist u .. u look like one of my ex v.p " den we start " which school , this and that ." lols .. and she still RMB me .. woot .. ((: ~
this shows i am good student . leave deep impression hahaks ! ..

[ i m getting a little too attach to my work place now .. just like school .. i am so afraid that it'll bother me when it comes to leaving .. just like it bothers me when it comes to graduating ]
[thank you .. i dont know for what .. but just thank you .. no matter how bad people say you are , i never listen .. i never let that affect my view of you .. because i respect you .. though is less than a month working tgt with you , but what i said and text-ed you is true .. just like i said hope u understand ]

[你的冷漠让我明白，无论我做什么都弥补不了那一个错...因为一个错你判我死刑...我明白了，也放弃了...谢谢你这么久以来教我这么多东西...谢谢你在我哭时安慰我，开导我...谢谢你在我害怕时，在我身边安定我的心情...谢谢你曾经给我这么多机会...对不起，我曾经如此敬爱的你...我让你失望了...再见...我爱你...]

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

it's a pretty long post .. read or nt up to you .. but if things that i've learnt .. and i dont breakdown that easily anymore .. ((: ~

work life :
tiring + fun - standing there hours after hours serving one customers after another .. it's tiring .. but at e same time , i enjoy it .. i have always want to have the cahnce to work in service line .. being able to interact with customers .. it's an unknown satisfaction that u get .. when ur customer is happy ((: ~ though i met ONE nasty customer at the moment .. but i am glad i met her .. at least i know not all customers are nice .. i treat her complains as gift .. to improve myself .. [ so not like me right ? i used to not think like this .. but i guess .. not now anymore ]

collegues - they are nice .. i am able to communicate with most of the senior staffs .. and i am really glad .. though i m not able to communicate with the temp staffs well .. but i am happy .. all i can say is , not being able to communicate with the temp staffs is a real sad case .. but i guess , teenagers , our age , just get upset over anything and everything .. since they are upset with me .. den it's fine .. ((: ~ but i will still communicate with them if one day they want to .. i cant possibly expect myself to be able to fit in everyones shoes .. i'll do wadever i can .. as long as i conscience clear .. nothing else matter .. (:

superior - very nice people .. thought they tend to 'bad mouth' each other .. but throughout all this while .. i learn to believe wad i see than wad i hear .. no matter wad they tell me .. i will only take it as it's their personal comment .. just like anyone else .. they cant possibly expect everyone to put themselves in their shoes or they putting themselves in other ppl's shoes .. anyway , i respect them alot ..
& esp mdm "Y" leaves me the deepest impression .. becus i used to not like her the 1st time i saw her .. but now , i respect her alot .. and i mean it .. alot .. may god bless her .. i dunwanna to see mdm "Y" in a difficult position and hiding in the store dropping tears again .. stay strong mdm "Y" ~ (L) ~

friendship :
all i can say is " let it be " .. ((: ~ i cant deny that i am not trying .. i mean i've got so used to the life that i am leading now .. nt getting affected by ''friendship'' problem .. i've got to say that yes i wanted to piece thing back for me and her .. but i duno how .. in additional , people that put relationship in 1st place makes me hesitate .. yes i mean , hey she might jolly well not want to be friend with me anymore .. but that doesnt really affect me .. cos ..... i mean, it's so unpredictable .. just like anyone of them .. she leave it there .. waiting and expecting time to heal me .. i duno when will it happen again .. landing me in the state like previously .. fyi , i m still catching on appointment nw and then .. anyway okayy stop saying all this .. hahaks .. it's never ending .. when one hurt the other , they never know .. they dunwanna to hurt people they love .. but they forgot that they are hurting ppl that love them . just like wad she did .. back to friendship .. actually is one word onli la .. "satisfied" .. ((: ~

kinship , friendship and relationship ..
this arrangement is not according to the fluency .. it's according to the importance and the loyalty towards each other .. but seem like some ppl just cant get this into their thick skull .. they rearrange it in this way ...

relationship , kinship and friendship ..
worst still
relationship , friendship and kinship ..

what on the earth just happened ? * sarcarstic*

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

因为看清了现实的世界，
开始学会保护自己，
因为开始保护自己，
开始不让人们靠近我最真实的自己。
也因为这样，
无意中，
我伤害了真心爱我和关心我的人。
对不起大家，
那是以前的我现在的我，
和未来的我...

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那些你留下的问号，
依然在我心里...
好想好想问你，
是否跟我一样留念，
但恍然发现，
只是自己无知...
事实早已无法改变...
是我太傻...

edit :
i naively thought that you will still share with me
stupidly i sent that message ..
forgetting that , you already have him to share
with you all your problems ..
i am not helping but only adding on to it ..

~~朋友一生一起走，那些日子不在有...~~

Labels: not trying at all ....

Friday, November 6, 2009

working this few days ((:
i realise i've changed my thinking ALOT !
i've learn to think positively ..
is like last time .. everyday and i mean EVERYDAY will emo one -.- [ even if nth happen i oso emo .. dunno wad's wrong with me ]
but now ? ROFL ~ i cannot rmb when was e last time i emo le .. ((: ~
work is tiring but fun ..
though i dont have friends there .. but i just like helping the customers out ..
their smile .. their thank you .. being able to make their shopping trip happy makes me feel
i'm nt as useless as i thought .. ((: ~

i miss many many people ..
4a3'09 - <3
school - <3
mdm aini - <3
mrs hee - <3
miss d.chong - <33 `
&& ~ you - <33`

come find me when u happen to come to orchard ((: ~
tangs plaza .. toys dep ((: ~ Weee~