Wednesday, September 30, 2009
hi all .. very down recently and all i can do is pushing myself to study to forget everything ..
my studying cycle now is ..
7pm~9pm tuition ..
10pm ~ 7am .. north point mac ..
9am~1/2pm school ..
the rest of the time sleep ..
i am very very tired .. but i keep force myself study ..
i dont want disappoint my teachers ..
i dont want ......... alot alot de thing ..
i dont know .. i need some one to talk to .. but who ?
who cares ? seriously ..
ytd ling and shan mention ____ at mac ..
i cried while talking bout our friendship in the past ..
but for wad? she is still leading hapily with her boy ..
that's why i said .. till the very last min ..
she still showed me relationship more important to her ..
and i said before i will hate her ..
and yes i hate her now .. ALOT ALOT !
forget it .. waste my breath opnly ..
*spit* get lost ! B****
Sunday, September 27, 2009
ya to you all i am always bloody fucking at fault right ? no matter how hard i try .. seriously .. fuck off la ..
you all only hear what she say you all think she bloody poor thing .. then she do to me de leyy ? knn .. as friend she do until like that u all got think for me ? ji bai la you all .. so many years friend got wad use ? knn .. always the villians kena side .. pua bye ! i dunwan contact u all anymore .. and i mean it la seriously .. few years friend so wad ? she knn step one pity u all side her like fuck ! hong gan la horh pua bye ! i realli dam piss off .. next time go anyway dont need jio ! i bloody wont give a dam anymore .. just fuck the hell off my life ..|
and seriously u suck .. bitch !
Friday, September 25, 2009
today is last day of school `
when i got the thing miss chong give , i cried ..
i'm gonna miss my teachers so so muchh ..
esp m.d.c and m.h ` sobbx .
mdm aini oso ..
i didnt expected her to be so emotional when i pass her the letter
i thought i m the onli one so emotional lo ..
skali , i pass her the letter she cry ..
i also cry .. den give a last hug and i left ..
haix .. i'll update soon .. this few days very down .. no mood byebye ..
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
look ` i've tried to trust other people ..
people that i can call "Friends'' but i realise ..
it's still better to be the loner i was all along ..
2 more days to study break .. i gonna miss my teachers , my classmates and my school ..
emo ` ..
4a3 ` 2009 :
hey , another 1 week and 4 days to our "N" level ..
work hard alrights ? dont disappoint our teachers ..
they tried very very hard to help us ..
i'm sure u all know ..
i really hope that we'll still be classmates next year .. <33 `
Teachers :
all the teachers that taught me before ..
i know , i always give u all alot crap ..
i'm really sorry ..
thank you [ all ] for ur constant
nags and advice .. the umpteen chance that you all gave us/me
4 years in northview .. and i really hope i can go back next year ..
north view is my home .. and u teachers are my family ..
<33 ` ..
mrs hee :
i'm really glad to have a cher like u ..
thak you so muchh for everything ..
those msges i sent u ,
i really mean it ..
i'll always remember you and _____ ( gonna mention her below ^^ )
thank you really .. i really hope i wont disappoint you ..
hope that i can go back next year ,
so that can spend another year with you all ..
once again .. thank you ..
MAMA CHONG AKA MISS DAP . CHONG :
niang ~ i am sorry if i've done anything to
let you down/upset you/disappoint you
pls pls pls do know that i really dont mean it ..
really really .. u are the most important
person in my life .. i see you more important
than my own mummy than anything else ..
i trust you alot and you're the 1st one i think of
when i needa some one to share my pain / joy
but i learning to be independent now le ..
really ..
i know i going graduate one day
and i know you got alot other students to
take care of ..
but do remember ..
day or night . rain or shine . no matter how far you are ..
i'll always remember you ..
i'll always remember that i have a cher like you ..
you're an angel that god "GIVE" to me ..
words cant express how i feel
all i wanna say is
your smile is really important
please stay happy and stay healthy
i once told you before ..
when we sad u here for us ..
when u sad we sure here for you ..
even next time u old i packet porrigde deliver to ur haus FOC
rmb ?
pls forgive me if i've done anything wrong alrights ?
" MUMMY ~ iLOVEyou .. " <33>
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Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Monday, September 21, 2009
seriously , we are happy with our life also .. and i meant "WE" ! u think we suffering without you ? pls la think again .. we are still going on with our promise our plan our everything .. we still meet and go out and everything .. without you .. no unhappiness .. all enjoying and everything .. so dont bloody think you are the only one that is enjoying life .. aiya dont want say le .. pollute my blog
[ no names stated , read le unhappy / guilty .. go your blog / wherever bark lo (: ]
past few days :
with qq , dd , rf , and more go play at 755 till 3am+ .. hk cafe ..
pool with them next day .. 12am++ ` aiya overall .. fun (: ~ woot ..
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` 2 weeks to N levels .. and i've been hanging out with my juniors quite often and qq , dd , rf and more ((:
very looking forward to enjoy my day with my bytch-es after N level .. den we can plan outing and everything ` yay ! ((: ~
and qq , dd , rf , hs .. rmb save money ((: ~ less den 4 month time we going there tgt .. 1st time w/o MUMMY ! only me and them ! :D ..
once after N level we plan and book everything kayy ((: !
chiong-ing for next 2 weeks ` mia-ing again .. byebye ((: ~
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
very down recently ..
but i gotta stand up .. cannot afford to fall now ..
alot ppl telling me this .. and i need to listen ..
i got to learn to be independent ..
cannot rely too muchh on others ..
went out with junior[s] todayy ..
feli <3 , alex <3 and elton <3 ` ((:
N level is coming really gotta work really hard ..
this few days didnt sleep well
went see octor she say
" insufficient sleep , too stress , high blood pressure need relax "
i very lax oredi kayy -.-'' ` wont so easy die ..
ireallylearningtobeindependentle..
dontwannaleavenvssbringingthisfeeling..
itsucks..
Monday, September 14, 2009
went back home after recess . not feeling well .. haix ..
i've got so many things that i wanna say ..
i've got so many question i wanna ask ..will you still listen to me if i share with you ?
yea .. N level is coming . alot people that are weaker need
ur time more den i do ..
sorry ` .. sorry .. really ..
i haven grow up ...........
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Sunday, September 13, 2009
伤了，哭了，累了...
真不知该说什么好了...
whatever i say , i do mean it ..
from e bottom of my heart ..
-1m8d-
Saturday, September 12, 2009
yesterday went to 755 play basketball with clique ` ..
cycling also ` around there .. very cooling .. relaxing ..
getting everything off my mind ..
slack till 3am .. come home ..
later going over again play basketball ` ..
very long never play le ((: `
tmr must study study le ` .. woot `..
still learning to ..........
hais `..
edit @ 11:15 -
hmmps .. didnt go play basketball today .. cancelled ..
slept for around 14 hrs today ?
my aunt and grandma thought i fainted ..
miss school alot ..
miss my teachers and classmates like hell ..
after my N level going play at 755 with them more often ..
playing back basketball ` ha (: ~for now , i must study hard first le `
((: ~ wee ...Friday, September 11, 2009
mix feeling ..
no longer feel safe ..
i am cold ..
- you all scold me for nt taking medi and all .. i know u all want me well .. i really know .. but do u all understand side effect is act on me ? when i start to get drastic headache .. wanna vomit .. giddy .. but all this u all dont know .. right ? u all only know .. i never eat medi my fault .. i act up becos i nv eat medi my fault again .. that one u all know onli .. sianx .. its draining all my energy .. -
one last time ? please ? i promise ..
will you think of the most important person in your life when you are very emotional?
will you think about the person you love and respect most ?
yes i will .. and i've got so muchh to say .. but who felt it ? only i know ...
To : _______
i do share with people my problem .
but deep down inside , i still distance them away from me .
you are the only one that i place closest to my weakest point .
to me , you are special . you are important .
i wanna share everything with you , though you not my friend .
i change because of you .
i want study hard because of you .
when my life is at the lowest point , i could'nt think of any reason
why i should continue living .
i remember , i want take my result at the end of the year to share with you .
cause i dont know when will i be able to share with you my pain and laughter again .
you were the reason why i come till here .
i dont care what people say . cause i know i really respect you from the bottom of my heart ,
cause i know you are really important . so what if they think that i am bootlicking
you ? i know i am not and i hope you know so too .
you are some one that i will never ever forget .
and i mean it .
never ever .. no matter what happen ..i know i am weak .. useless and annoying ..
i've got so much to tell you .. to share with you ..
happy and sad .. everything that happen-ed in my life ,
you will definitely be the first person i think of ..
i know you've got many other people that you needa take care of .
i know people out there need you help ..
i..... erofeb ekil uoy ot kaeps ot egaruoc eht tsol i
one mistake , i killed myself ..
anything just say infront behind say really no use .. giving attitude also dont solve problem so save it .. dun step one there ..
see me not happy ur problem .. u want find me trouble i also dun care cos i did nthh wrong .. i conscience clear (:
i in skul wait u k ? (: ` *looking forward*
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to :
fifah , raudah , myy ..
things happen-ed previously .. misunderstanding and stuffs .. just hope everything is fine now .. raudah rmb the promise u made kayy ? (: anything we will sort it out tgt .. and myy gd luk with H**** .. and as for afifah ... ermm .... dunnid marry oredi cos u are mother le ((: ` ..
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today is 1st sep .. happy teacher's day to THEM ~ ..
iLOVEyou (:
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