`if you were me , you will understand how i feel ..
some one that took care of me 16 FUCKING YEARS ! I DUN TRUST ! I CANT SHARE THINGS WITH THIS PERSON .. I CANT FEEL SAFE WITH THIS PERSON ..
you know how useless i felt ? you know how i feel ? i let this person down .. the love and care i didnt feel anything .. no trust , no security .. no anything .. 16 FUCKING YEARS ! DAMMIT !
but for some one that i know for 3-4 yrs , i trusted her .. when i upset , when i feel unsafe , the 1st one i think of is her .. when she is around i feel safe .. and best part , no blood relation no anything ... wads wrong with me .. its a feeling i cant explain .. its just lyk , " how come u fall in love with him/her" ? no explanation and frustrating ..
i know i gotta learn one day .. the one is going to be there for me the next 16 yrs will not be HER .. it will be my family .. i gotta learn to trust them and love them .. i gotta really try .. 1st time .. i'm trying .. 16 yrs .. i dunno how long it'll take , but i will try ..
but before that will still be ........
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