there's so so many thing i wanna say .. and its all kept inside my heart .. i dont dare to share .. i dunwan ppl to judge me .. i dunwan them to know the weakest side of me .. sometime i dun understand myself .. i am very scared .. scared of wad i also duno .. i just dunwan people to come to close to me .. [ not physically ] but just not too close to the most truthful side of me ..
some one i know once asked me " who is e person you trust most ? " . " wad he/she did ? how come you trust he/she most ? " . " he/she not here oredi who is the 2nd person ? "
den i was like reflecting .. den i realise .. dammit .. i onli got 1 person i trust . i was like trying dam hard to 'dig' another person out from in my mind that i can realli put the word "TRUST" on his/her name de den i realise really dun have le .
den if that person realli not here oredi how ? [ and i know the days drawing really near ] haiya very vex la .. i always thinking bout thing that haven happen .. cos i wanna prepare in advance .. in case suddenly happen i cannot take it .. but thinking realli make my head grow double sial .. %$&%$*@$%^@$ wadeva ..
i needa concentrate on my studies .. i score well .. my parent happy , my teacher happy , i will also happy ..