frankly , all along , i know what is going on in my life ..
i am only smiling comforting myself that everything will be alright ..
i managed to change my thinking towards my surrounding ..
i understand that , many things are beyond my control ..
god long ago written it in his " book of life " ..
so far , i got to say , i m doing well ..
being able to control my emotion ..
but i realise , is only for a time being ..
because as i start to not talk about anything and treating it as nothing and dont want to mention"
i start to bottle things up .. the more i keep , i realise i dun feel like talking .
i dont want to speak to anyone .. because i m keeping too much inside and i m afriad of "humans" seriously ..
no one is true .. no one is real .. everyone is putting a mask infront of each other ..
even if u treat another person well , they will not appreciate it .. even if u realli love the other person , they will not know it ..
something very funny .. when u really love a person and care for a person , it will always be taken for granted .. you dont cherish the care and love that people give you .. but u complain about the love and care that another person did not give you ..
den think back , izzit fair to the person that really love and care for you ?
you never know , that person only want you to smile , to be happy , but u are upset bout who who who doesnt care and love you .. but the one that really care and love you is listening to you .. sitting right infront of you ..
which part these ppl dun understand sial ?
i understand that if you give doesnt mean you got to get something back , but frankly , question yourself ..
when u treat some one u love very well , u expected something back right ? that's the smile of theirs and hope that they will happy .. but when they are not at all .. you will also never will be ..
*giddy* .. i really need to go back to the days when i isolate myself from everyone ? if that is the best way , i will .. sick and tired ..