smiling ... crying ... smiling ... crying ... smiling .......... crying ...............
i really dont know .. as i m typing , i cant stop myself .... from crying ..
this feeling sucks ! i duno wad i want .. i duno wad i need .. i duno wad shit i m getting into ..
the feeling of not knowing what will happen next or to say , wad you want .. sucks .. and i mean it .. why ... why ?? i guess i need some one to talk to .. some one who will understand .. some one who knows how it feels .. some one i can trust ..................... why now ? why not later or earlier ? pls dont play ur "game of life" with me now .. seriously .. i duno if i can take it ..
let me be ...

was chatting with some one on msn ytd ..
so she said , " you are not one that fall for some one u only know for ______ " , " you seem to fall deeper this time round "
and i was like thinking .. very true .. i always "PICK" and "CHOOSE" quite carefully who i want to tell things to and who i want my friends to be .. and of cause .. who i gonna love ..
i dont just fall for some one i barely know .. no no no ! this time is different la .. zzz ..
i dont know .. i'm like slowly releasing myself .. in e past i bloody keep for ONE whole year and till now only ONE person * if i didnt rmb wrongly * know who my 365++ days was .. but this time round .. i share .. i dnt know .. but slowly , i just want ppl to know .. i m learning to not bother what they say .. and i realise .. if u can accept , u are my fwen .. if cant .. forget it .. i used to be very affected .. but not now anymore ....... i guess .. i mean , i m still affected if ppl say about ppl that i LOVE ! so ...... ya .. okay i duno wad i crapping bout .. but so wad ? my blog my say .. not happy dont read lo.. buhbyes ~ (:

happy chinese new year ((:
and also happy valentine's day to all of you ..
some people ask me why never update .. ehhks ..
you all come , never leave tag still dare complain complain !?
hahaks .. today went visiting .. collect red packet $$ ..
as usual chit chat those .. quite bored ..
wanted to text ______ but ... argh forget it .. :(
kept thinking bout it .. re-reading e messages and all ..
i mean , i know that ........ forget it ..
i just dont have the habit to share ..
keeping it to yourself is the best ..
i guess today just average though i receive quite a few red packet ..
if those red packets can exchange for ____ time/ a few text / conversation ..
i dont mind .. hahaks .. stupid right .. forget it .. buhbyes ((: ~

*testing .... testing .... 1 .... 2 ... 3 .... * clear throat *
HELLO EVERYONE ! ((: [ saying hi to those who leave TAG and those who dont -.- ; dont think i dont know ahh .. ]
okayy , seriously ... i m like "trying" to find back my motivation -.-''
i am not studying now .. going school = going to toilet so so so many times .. sleep .. draw .. talk crap .. zzz ! ii dont know wad is wrong with me also .. lOl !
seriously , some one help me uhhs !!!! stop me from going to e toilet [ cos i m only roaming around !! ]







i really not in mood this few days ..
and it's because of _______ ..
:( ~ iLy ..