a post for you :
it's 1:20am now .. you must be asleep i guess .. or are u on e phone with your love ?
imissyou alot .. you know ? though i am not in singapore now , but whatever i do here ,
you are constantly in my mind .. when i see something very funny , i thought " it'll be great if u're here .. i wanna you to see this " ..
when i see something very nice i thought " i'll get this for you *hesitate* , who the fuck i think i am ? "
bby , i dont know if life will be better or worse with you .. but i know life certainly sucks without you .. cause that's what i am going through now ..
i wonder if by now you've seen your importance to me .. loving you is all that i can do .. i am already losing myself .. i cant see myself anymore .. everything is only about you now .. i really love you alot .. alot alot .. more than you could ever think of .. i understand the fact that you gave no promise .. i understand the fact that someone else is your priority .. i understand the fact that your heart belongs to some one else .. so what ? does that mean that you cannot be my priority ? does that mean that i cannot keep you in my heart ? i really dont know .. if what you want is me to let go , is me to stop loving you , to not get into your life anymore , to go away ... i will .. no matter how pain / how difficult it is i will .. because i love you .. so long you say it , i will do it ..
like anyone else , i dont care if there's no future .. i dont care even if it's gonna end one day .. i just need you .. to be here ..
i just wanna love you right .. perhaps someone else is doing a great job now ..
a song i've been listening recently it all about , if you wanna love some one right , and there's another person who is already doing it .. leave ..
and i guess , it's sending a message to me ? nothing funny about .. i cried again and again .. and i always tell myself , " ok , this is gonna be e last time " but it never ever was .. i dont know how to tell you , i dont know how to express it , i dont know what else i can do .. besides smiling and pretending it isnt hurting me .. just one request ; stay here , dont go .. even if i am not your priority , dont make me your last option either .. will you ?
nothing's gonna change this fact that , you are my priority ; now and till the day i find another some one who can replace .. iloveyou bby .. now and always ..
i wanna this song to question you ; would you be there ?
