yo ? hi all .. those who keep read and never tag one horh ! is time to tag tag me alr horh ! hmmps !
left school earlier today .. was sick ! back ache .. anyway in class also i doing nothing .. i drawing and scribbling all over about ...... cant bloody seem to concentrate also .. haha .. at the rate i m going now who the fuck would believe i actually topped my N level ? lOL ! sigh . very distracted .. by who/what some will know -.-'' zzz .. some ppl tel me .. " alr not possible , den let it go la .. why want hold on waste time waste this waste that " .. actually never idd i once find it waste of time or anything .. sigh .. i dunnid scolding .. i need comforting .. u all never seem to see this .. i also SICK AND TIRED alr la .. Dr.F told me yesterday i dont need go back for my check up alr .. meaning i fully recover .. same old questions he always ask : " still upset recently ? " , " do you still have suicidal thoughts ?" this and that la .. but what i ans him is , " i m fine , i dont find a need to get upset anymore " which is true .. that's why i m happier now .. cos i didnt bother bout so many things like i used to .. maybe when u choose not to care life would be better . life now . i so tired that i dont have e strength to hold on to anything anymore .. and i realise when this happens it's e time when to me ; life and death doesnt matter .. i just wanna lead my life like that and wait for death's arrival .. anyway it's sooner or later . (: .. bye ~